my brain is still in “uk-whuk” stun after a video on my youtube subs the other day

took a while to figure out what was going on, who this was, and why they were in my space, but

an old very-online steven universe fan who spoke about autism has wiped their socials and decided to be an open nazi now

they were embarrassed over being “cringe” in their twenties and wanted to distance themself entirely from their old persona and their old ideas about why they were the way they are—so they made a choice to pivot and rebrand and talk about how obvious “race science” is when you stop pretending and really think about it

i had a flicker of a thought to reply with something like, “just happening to be autistic is ‘cringe’ but consciously choosing to be a nazi isn’t?”

instead i unsubscribed, and deleted their posts from my viewing history.

in 2025 you still can’t really block youtube channels, so that’ll have to do.

if you’re familiar with the steven universe fan ecosystem of seven years ago, then yes—it’s exactly who it sounds like.

my head can’t help picking away at this continuously as some low-level process taking up my working ram, even though i never knew them personally and kind of gave them wide berth—wide enough a berth that i am more surprised that i’d been subscribed all this time they had gone quiet, than i am by this newest posture they have adopted.

the psychology going on here, what i can unravel from a distance and scant real information, it’s… doing something.

i see… something