{"id":1789,"date":"2008-05-15T17:09:00","date_gmt":"2008-05-15T17:09:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/aderack.com\/journal\/2008\/05\/now-im-down-in-it\/"},"modified":"2021-03-27T20:11:43","modified_gmt":"2021-03-28T00:11:43","slug":"now-im-down-in-it","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/aderack.com\/journal\/2008\/05\/now-im-down-in-it\/","title":{"rendered":"Now I’m Down In It"},"content":{"rendered":"

Amandeep:<\/span><\/b> wait so
\nisn’t “kinda i want to” sort of uh
\nspecifically about being gay
\nMe:<\/span><\/b> Is it?
\nAmandeep:<\/span><\/b> this just occurred to me
\nMe:<\/span><\/b> Wait, let me take a look at this.
\nAmandeep:<\/span><\/b> i’m not sure of what i should do.
\nwhen every thought i’m thinking of is you.
\nall of my excuses turn to lies.
\nmaybe God will cover up his eyes
\nMe:<\/span><\/b> Okay. Yeah, there’s some ambiguity about the pronouns and the exact naure of his transgression.
\nThe simplest reading is… well, it’s an early version of Closer.
\nActually.
\nFrom across the way?
\nIs he some kind of weird Rear Window stalker?
\nAmandeep:<\/span><\/b> i mean, the thing is that there are all these weird FORBIDDEN LOVE kind of overtones
\nMe:<\/span><\/b> Sitting alone in his apartment, lusting after some woman across the way?
\nIt’s really ambiguous.
\nAmandeep:<\/span><\/b> actually
\nthis could be from the perspective of like
\na rapist or something
\nMe:<\/span><\/b> Yeah.
\nAmandeep:<\/span><\/b> which is a much creepier reading
\nbut seems equally valid
\nMe:<\/span><\/b> Stalker-rapist.
\nAmandeep:<\/span><\/b> what’s the price i pay.
\ni don’t care what they say.
\ni want to.
\nMe:<\/span><\/b> Man.
\nYeah.
\nI actually like that interpretation.
\nThough the gay one is interesting.
\nThis is such an open-ended song.
\n“I want to do something transgressive! And I feel ambivalent about that!”
\nSo many possibilities!
\nAmandeep:<\/span><\/b> hahaha
\n“I want to do something transgressive! And I feel ambivalent about that!”
\nMe:<\/span><\/b> So let’s assume the stalker-rapist interpretation for the moment.
\nMe:<\/span><\/b> Now consider the early version<\/a> of the song.
\nAmandeep:<\/span><\/b> yeah
\nSent at 4:40 PM on Thursday
\nMe:<\/span><\/b> That’s kind of a brilliant combination.
\nI’m going to just assume that’s what the song is about, specifically because that’s the original arrangement.<\/p>\n<\/div>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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