{"id":6603,"date":"2020-09-12T14:59:02","date_gmt":"2020-09-12T18:59:02","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/aderack.com\/journal\/?p=6603"},"modified":"2020-12-12T22:35:15","modified_gmt":"2020-12-13T03:35:15","slug":"the-jitters","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/aderack.com\/journal\/2020\/09\/the-jitters\/","title":{"rendered":"The Jitters"},"content":{"rendered":"
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The thing about bodily sensations\u00e2\u20ac\u201dpleasure, pain, excitement\u00e2\u20ac\u201dis typically I have trouble telling them apart, as with this autistic brain everything is so extreme for me. It all just parses as various degrees of “too much,” that I have to grit my teeth and weather through until it ebbs to a manageable level. Social overwhelm, sex, injuries, overly strong scents, high temperatures, they’re all the same to me. I’m hit with this wave of shock, and my whole body shuts down. I tremble, start to black out. I can’t process what’s happening. It’s like a DDoS for my nervous system. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I say this because I feel like I’m suddenly become a little sensitized to caffeine. It’s never affected me much in the past, beyond kind of calming me down and clearing my head. In college I used to drink a couple cans of Surge to help me sleep. Maybe it’s my changing chemistry. But the last few days, I’ve had one mug of coffee and I feel like crying and taking a nap. I didn’t make the connection until now. My body feels like someone’s been yelling at me for an hour. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

So, I guess that’s one more thing to pay attention to now.<\/p>\n<\/div>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

The thing about bodily sensations\u00e2\u20ac\u201dpleasure, pain, excitement\u00e2\u20ac\u201dis typically I have trouble telling them apart, as with this autistic brain everything is so extreme for me. It all just parses as various degrees of “too much,” that I have to grit my teeth and weather through until it ebbs to a manageable level. 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