{"id":8323,"date":"2021-04-20T21:10:59","date_gmt":"2021-04-21T01:10:59","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/aderack.com\/journal\/?p=8323"},"modified":"2021-04-20T21:11:01","modified_gmt":"2021-04-21T01:11:01","slug":"the-uplifting-plunge","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/aderack.com\/journal\/2021\/04\/the-uplifting-plunge\/","title":{"rendered":"The Uplifting Plunge"},"content":{"rendered":"
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I absolutely needed a new bra. I’ve been feeling for a while like the camera is gaslighting me on the matter, considering the empirical data I know I have. Clearly my situation is not insignificant <\/em>here, and the tools I got ain’t containing things for more than a couple minutes at a time. And that inadequacy may speak to why it’s so hard to document my boobage. Gotta keep the material in one place. That’s the point of the things. Otherwise, the meat will meander. Obviously presentation isn’t the biggest concern. I just always feel weird how in pictures it’s like, where are they<\/em>?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I was so nervous of how it would fit. I’ve done the measurements so many times, I have the technique down so hard now, I knew they were correct in theory. I put all that research into different bra shapes and boob shapes and how different styles and features support things differently. I knew I should be looking at stuff like plunge bras and things with side support. But I also get things wrong, and I can’t control for outside factors. Different bra styles fit differently. Different makers do things differently. I didn’t know how the material would feel.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

My first couple bras, I basically just looked for things in my then-size, that looked nice and were cheap. I had more theory going on this time, which made for more things to mess up. Theory does not necessarily map to reality! And one misses things. Frequently. I guess I was just scared of disappointment. I am so easily scared of my own emotions, is really what my problem. I needn’t be, of course. My feelings are my own. They’re not some invading force. I can just let them be what they need to be. And it’s fine; it’s normal. And It’s just a frickin bra. Chill, Azure.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

So it came today. And when I unwrapped the thing I was like, oh no, did I get this wrong? Why is it so big?<\/em>! I knew that sounded off. I don’t see how I could have messed up the measurements or the calculations but of course I did. How would it makes sense for me to be 34G? What kind of vanity was I injecting into this process?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Welp.<\/p>\n\n\n\n