{"id":8405,"date":"2021-05-18T22:40:00","date_gmt":"2021-05-19T02:40:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/aderack.com\/journal\/?p=8405"},"modified":"2021-05-24T00:00:10","modified_gmt":"2021-05-24T04:00:10","slug":"pushing-back","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/aderack.com\/journal\/2021\/05\/pushing-back\/","title":{"rendered":"Pushing Back"},"content":{"rendered":"
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When I smile now, I can feel all this meat on my face, resisting in an unfamiliar way. It’s not obvious to look at, but I can feel the change in soft tissue when I move it, same as I feel the friction with my butt and thighs when I walk. Like, it’s visceral.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Things have seemed… different for a while, but it’s been hard to narrow down until this moment. These nasolabial folds I got\u00e2\u20ac\u201dlaugh lines, or whatever you call them\u00e2\u20ac\u201dthey were absolutely not like this even a few weeks ago. Which is to say, they had grown pretty prominent with age, and now they’re filling back in\u00e2\u20ac\u201dso they’re puffy, almost. Ergo, that resistance when I smile. The skin is soft and smooth, and the flesh is thick. The creases are still there, but way shallower than they were.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

There’s zero question. It’s blatant. I know because I’ve been sighing about these creases constantly the last couple years, since I began to pay attention to myself. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

So yeah, finally a data point. We absolutely are moving around some soft tissue up in here. This is the first concrete thing I can point at and say, bingo, yes, it is more than a vague feeling. We’re not making stuff up. We have empiricism. (I also sense that my jaw is softening, but in this case have no specific reference to back that up.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I mean I guess you can see all this in recent pictures.<\/p>\n\n\n\n